Clashing Emotions.

"Emotions seem to flow through my veins like my very blood

But today my blood has been boiling under the warmth or is it the wrath of the sun?

I can not really say but I accept it it either wayJust like I accept the winter breeze which makes one cold

Yet today it isn't winter that has cooled down my heated spirit but rather a chilled sea breeze

That brought me epifanies

Of new days to come

That made me realize the reality of certain things

Even though my eyes stray from it

I knew the outcome of us, and dreadful to admit

I was living in an illusion

What we were & are to each other were just figments of our imagination

Expectations implanted in each others idea of perfection

We deceived ourselves in believing we were what we needed for each other

But we both knew deep down that we were to different to co-exist

Your a selfish lover with a streak of jealousy & insecurity

While I'm the free-spirit that hasn't been tamed and knows no boundaries

Combined together we clashed

Even though I tried to keep it together

My efforts weren't enough for your ego,

Your troubled soul, that I couldn't calm

You didn't allow me

And I never let you in to know who I was

A natural actress I played my part

But never the role you wanted me to play

So now we stand no longer by each others side, we're

Going down two different paths of desires

Trying to find what we were trying to look for in each other

Perhaps it was there at one point

That spark or potential for that ideal love

But to late now, we brought the "bad" out from each other

And now I've accept the loss of you'cause you never cared enough

To prevent such an action

And I already knew the consequence of being with you

And still risked it cause I thought you were worth it handsome

To bad you couldn't see

The potential we had, so now

We linger around as strangers as we always were to each other

One day the odds will be different

And when that happens perhaps one day

Our clashing can be harmonious as the waves crashing onto the shore

A beautiful act of nature."

- Palaguachi